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| Wednesday, October 8th, 2008 | | 9:37 am |
Fuck you, you took what you wanted and left, like locusts. everything i gave to you, everything that we've been through you bled me dry and then left, like leeches. go, you got what you could now leave, like vultures ripped apart in minutes what was built in seven years the ink scarred on your back may as well of disappeared for as long as i remember, you sold everything you owned but now you sold our friendship, you're on your fucking own. (because) If I had it my way I'd slit your throat with the knife you left in my back all the shame, all this guilt, all this regret, that's me i'm inside of you and this is your world fucking falling apart mate, from the inside out. everything will fall at your feet - you got hell to pay and you better fucking bow down to me you better beg for mercy get on your fucking knees and cry me a fucking river sleep with one eye open best friends means forever, cunt. | | Tuesday, September 9th, 2008 | | 12:45 pm |
life rulesssss!!!! i leave for minnesota friday, my flight leaves at 10:20 or so!:) SOOO PUMPED! mall of america sick show good friends wii mexican! xo Current Mood:  mellow | | Monday, August 25th, 2008 | | 11:59 pm |
lately..
things have been hot and cold.. for the most part last weekend was soo good seeing bros I never get to see!! Hanging out eating mexican food, playing the wii and being mistaken for being in one of the bands more than once! hearing bleeding through's new cd is sooo good it sounds like dimmu borgir mixed with slayer,blast beats, insane breakdowns and everything its miles away from anything they've ever done, it makes me so proud, kids are going to flip when they hear it!! Jona had one of his old band members send me some I killed the prom queen shirts which I got in the mail today which made my day, on top of getting 2 hoodies and 6 bleeding through shirts from the show.. those dudes always take such good care of me <3 I've been hanging out with seriously one of the most amazing girls I have ever come across and she just makes me smile so much, for the most part things are great but than again she said she trys to not fall for me because she thinks I'm going to hurt her, it hurts me to hear her say that it hurts even more to hear my so called "friends" talk shit about me to her which makes me so glad that I'm sending them to sea and moving on because I don't need that and her and her son don't need it either! I really hope thing go good with her and I because she makes my heart smile bigger than ever and whenever I'm around her my face hurts from smiling and laughing! I'm glad to have left the constant drama of the 1414 crowd and just move on and make myself and someone who I care so much about happy!! ps. who wants to go see this is hell in october with me?? | | Wednesday, August 13th, 2008 | | 1:35 am |
who saw that coming.. fuck this, I cant do it anymore | | Monday, August 4th, 2008 | | 10:22 pm |
| | Monday, July 14th, 2008 | | 3:13 pm |
its never going to work out is it? | | Wednesday, July 9th, 2008 | | 12:28 am |
I guess, I will let everyone know now what the deal is with my recent statuses on here, facebook and myspace.. A few days ago I was contacted about possibly going out on tour for about a month after my information was given by one of my friend's Jona to one of his friends who is a tour manager for a band from the UK called Bring Me The Horizon ( http://www.myspace.com/bmth ) who need's a merch guy for warped tour from 7/23 -8/18. If anyone knows me, they know how big of an opportunity this would be and how many doors it could possibly could open. Its going to be a ton of work but they have a tour bus and will also be paying me if I get the spot! So everyone should seriously keep your fingers crossed for me!! xo Current Mood:  indescribable | | Saturday, July 5th, 2008 | | 8:41 pm |
We'll obviously that put my stomach in knots only to be let down.. I really wish the outcome was different. xo | | Friday, July 4th, 2008 | | 12:08 pm |
I really hope it comes through, im doubting it will. this could open so many doors!!! I'M KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED xo | | Thursday, June 12th, 2008 | | 1:21 am |
This world is dying everyday Don't let it come between us Our fate has traveled this far And now the storm brings us faster to a close Brimming with pathetic prose Vacate your stolen hearts As if nobody's seen us And empty out your pockets You needn't bring Anything where we're going And to think we created this monster Crawling in and walking out on us To think that we craft our own disasters Falling in and falling out of hope Don't leave me, I need this Unleashed and unafraid, us castaways Calling out release us, propelling towards Insidious decay at an alarming rate And to think we created this monster Crawling in and walking out on us To think that we craft our own disasters Falling in and falling out of hope Don't leave me, give me release Don't sink down into defeat Only when you're through fleeing Can you save yourself deliver us Current Mood:  hopeful | | Tuesday, June 10th, 2008 | | 12:03 am |
I dont understand sometimes.. I guess I'm just destined for it! once you hit rock bottom the rock breaks and you just sink lower.. Current Mood:  blank | | Sunday, June 1st, 2008 | | 1:06 am |
For once my eyes are open to you, and everything you've said. For once your web of lies is in the open. I gave you everything I had, until I had nothing left. Now you act as if I'm just a burden. I've finally let go. Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on. I'm done playing these games with my heart I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose. I've been swallowed by this wreck that you call your life. I'm damaged from the inside. I've been broken. Don't threaten me with what you think I feel. If you could read my mind you'd be in tears. I'm sick of your excuses you hold above me. I've finally come to terms with what I am. I'm nothing in your eyes, and this will not change. I'm living in a dream. Stay silent at least for now, and let me move on. I'm done playing these games with my heart I've been around the world and back for you, and now its time to choose. And I'll close my eyes, and dream of a better time when I'm finally past this and happy on my own. I've done all I can, and I've still been cast aside. All I ever wanted to be was be the one who would wipe those tears from your eyes. But I guess I'll play second best, to a world that will never care about you. When will you understand to them you're just another pretty face? You'll tell me that you care, and then run straight back to him. I can hear your words of treason from a mile away. You never did know how to whisper. You're such a liar. Tell me the truth. Do the world a favor stop cutting your arms, and slit your throat | | Friday, May 30th, 2008 | | 12:43 pm |
I wish things would change! I wish people would be true! I wish I would matter! again and again the calm never comes before the storm I really hope things will work out in my favor for once | | Monday, May 19th, 2008 | | 12:14 am |
Getting tattooed for 4+hours june 7th 1:00pm at fish ladder tattoo! soo stoked, for anyone who doesnt know im starting my leg sleeve :) its going to be siiiiiick xo | | Saturday, May 17th, 2008 | | 2:23 pm |
This is the end of days that source and cure of all our pain was hidden deep in the grooves of record skip refrain. No, theres no coming back from nights like these. We'll write melancholy anthems, to commemorate disaster. Bookmark this page cause this is where things fall apart. Remember these days cause this is how downward spirals start these are the things I never wanted to say, this is a place I never wanted to be... So let it all come crashing down on me. This is permanence. This is youth's last dance. This is the end of days that I could look you in the eye and tell you nothings wrong. Darkened halls doomed phone calls, take this down, cause we're telling all with melancholy anthems to commemorate disaster. Bookmark this page this is where things fall apart Remember these days, cause this is how downward spirals start. These are things I never wanted to say, this is a place I never wanted to be... So let it all come crashing down on me. These are the things that we never ever wanted to know, with smiling scars across our throats, If the good die young we'll fucking live forever. | | Monday, May 5th, 2008 | | 2:47 am |
How come I'd never hear you say I just wanna be with you Guess you never felt that way xo | | Saturday, March 22nd, 2008 | | 5:21 pm |
Storm clouds hanging over head. Offer not the slightest bit of comfort for the first time in days. I wait to discover disasters that I've slept though while I felt so alive. So we say goodbye, so we say goodbye. Heartstrings severed just as quick as they were discovered. So we say goodbye, so we say goodbye. I'll break my own fall, to keep you picture perfect. Just don't wake me up now.. So say goodbye, close your eyes for the last time, questioning everything that went wrong.. The silence she whispers to me, telling me things we dare to speak out loud. The collaboration of the blinding sun through vacant streets hits home hard, like a hatchet to the skull. I'd keep you here if it kept me warm and these winters away. Your hands were the only hands needed to hold me. For the first time in days.. I feel alive. In the end we'll both rot together. In the end we'll rot together, our love lies in embers Peering out of those same cracked windows. That I studied, for days upon days.. Suddenly collapse.. It all falls down. So say goodbye, close your eyes for the last time, questioning everything that went wrong.. | | Monday, February 25th, 2008 | | 1:20 am |
UPDATE
Its been awhile.. -dope girlfriend that I couldnt be anymore stoked about -no sidekick due to a gnarly car wreck in which we fliped 3 times -starting to get my life together -new eternal lord cd is so keen -I love my friends -themed parties are kinda fun xo | | Friday, November 23rd, 2007 | | 1:52 pm |
After everything you’ve done. After your second face failed. And your words were broken. With the touch of vipers you set your words upon my back. Spitting daggers you cant kill those already dead. Buried beneath a pile of one liners and cheap attempts at honesty. Buried so fucking far from your worthless lies. And the fire. The fire to cleanse your mouth. You’ll never awake from your hell and for a second you almost had me fooled. Keep walking. Keep breathing. | | Friday, November 9th, 2007 | | 12:39 am |
For the first time in a long time, I feel content 111% through and through. All a sudden it just hit me out of nowhere. I think I relized that I keep looking at the big picture when it comes to relationships, always worrying about tomorrow and next week.. The second I started looking at it as " I have today, Ive got to worry about makeing the best of it, not tomorrow." The more I started looking into what was going to happen I ended up getting so far away from the main thing and thats just being happy with what I have today and makeing the best of it. I dont know whats going to happen tomorrow and I dont care, I just want to take what I have and make the best of what ive been given, becuase thats all I can do. For the first time in so long, Ive gotten rid of that feeling in my stomch, I never thought that it would be so easy, yet so hard at the same time. Another thing that I relized today, I always thought that I was always going to be depressed, but right now I dont have one thing to be depressed over, sure I have things that bother me but I dont have anything to be sad about. I think the more I stayed to myself the more depressed I got and I assumed that was who I was and when I got into relationships that no matter how happy I was that depression was part of me, part of who I was, but right now its not. Im sure I'll have my days, but than again everyone does. I just have to stop and take a look around and relize I have so much to be thankful for and how lucky I am. xo Ps. the new sigur ros record is so good. Current Mood:  contentCurrent Music: sigur ros |
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